FOLLOWING A HOBBY IS NEW MEDITATION

Hiya world, after a very long time m again excited to write a post, this time I have discovered some new things.........From some past few days i was not feeling well psychologically, I was feeling like I was distracted, a little bit frustrated........ Uuh I don't know, in short I was not feeling all on my own and knew that this is time for meditation.

I don't meditate on regular basis, meditation for me is like energy drink ......when I do excessive exercise I need energy drink similarly when I excessively mess my life I need meditation :).

But this time story was something different I wasn't in mood of doing meditation actually I wasn't in mood of doing anything, I was just lying on my bed n was doing nothing..........after some boring time pass I saw my sketch book n started thinking like how passionately and regularly I sketched before...........its not like I don't like sketching anymore but now m not as passionate as I was earlier, so I thought its been 1 and half years while I last sketched, I should give a try...........next thing was I took my sketch book, pencil set and my ipod and started. While sketching I was hearing old melodious songs.

Initially I was just doing sketching but after sometime my mind was in peace, I was very focused and slowly  went to that state of mind where I was feeling like I m sitting all alone, nobody is around me like everything except me and my sketch book is got blurred. For the next 2 hours I didn't look around even didn't move my head..... I was soooo calm, my heart really slow down, I didn't had a single thought in my mind....I was feeling just like I feel while doing meditation. And after 2 hrs when I completed sketching I looked around.... it was all same as it was before 2 hrs but now I was feeling so different from what I was feeling before 2 hrs. I realized that I was in much more calmness.  U know "nothing really changes in this world, its our point of view that changes". Believe me change your point of view or u can say thinking and u will feel like u r in another world. Try this and tell me if u feel in same way as I felt.

Conclusion: Meditation doesn't mean u sit on mat, closing your eyes and then meditate, there are lots of other ways to do meditation............ you just need to do anything means anything that interest you with ur heart and u will be calm, happy and definitely a good person...........enjoy life to its fullest........cheers

 

Following is the sketch that I have made that day

A little FANTASY is better than a dull reality

Hiya world, Today in evening  I was just sitting in my balcony and sipping my favorite beverage tea and simultaneously enjoying outside view……not the glorious nature beauty but the beauty of world yep the “world” full of human being. Everyone was busy in fulfilling their responsibilities……men were going back to home from office & women were returning home after their daily marketing, in short everyone was busy ………………and there was third segment of world that’s right “kids”..…suddenly they grab my attention, they were free……I mean tension free, they were playing and were enjoying every rhythm of life. 

Every kid enjoy life in their own way……and then there was a kid standing all alone under a tree ………suddenly my eyes stopped at him………..no he was not isolated, he was deep in his own world…..I started observing him……..I found that the way he is looking at each n everything around him was so different than my way though we were in the same surrounding n both of us were enjoying our surroundings. Everything that I was enjoying was very materialistic or may be superficial……..but everything that he was enjoying was full of fantasy, curiosity, excitement  n very deep unlike mine……..that literally remind me my childhood, my vision to see world at that time……..cute :). 

We all live 2 parallel life in our childhood……..1 which is too realistic, surrounded with elders where everyone want to teach something to us, to make us realize that we are still too small to think all over alone n the another 1 which is full of fantasy, where everything seems as magical full of curiosity……..for e.g. I remember when I was kid n was instructed by my father to not to touch a particular almirah….…but whenever my  father was not present at home then me n my sibling had only 1 target “mission almirah”……my sibling could easily open that locked almirah with scissors……..n then wat we got! a brand new set of utensils, beautiful pens…..brand new decorative items which may have been there to gift it to somebody or i don’t know…………but 1 thing I know that everything was brand new…..n it felt like we got some treasure…..we touch them like we got treasure, play wid them hold them in princess style make our own story n do role play…all the thing that actually happen in this world was some kind of play for us at that time…..full of positivity, curiosity. A new cup piece at that time was like treasure n now just for having tea………uff so materialistic. Today when we get everything that we fantasize in childhood…..then we become dull, lifeless, boring…..nah, it should not be like this. I want to enjoy this hidden world the deep 1 that only an innocent kid can enjoy, I want to keep this innocence inside me forever n ever.

 M not saying that I want to live only in fantasy world………..but yes I don’t want to be too realistic, don’t want to live too materialistic life. Sometimes a little fantasy is better than a dull reality at-least it gives us a hope n when u have hope u think positive n when u think positive then life is definitely good……… believe me. so I wish that i can preserve this childish innocence n fantasy inside me even if m 60 or 80year old so that i can see the world d way i used to see in my childhood, the way which is so fresh, alive, living and deep........................cheers

My PSYCHOLOGICAL journey from 75kg to 46kg [Part -2]

Now I was on my mission........I didn't have control over my weight & my bad luck but If I can have control over my mind then I can have control over every aspect of my life. I started controlling my mind by manipulating it. My body was used to hear word fat, obese, unlucky, unhappy so wat I have done? I just simply replaced these words wid slim, thin, beautiful, strong. I told my body "see m loosing weight....wow yeppy". I said to my self  "I am Profectus I can do anything not just for saying I literally mean it", "yes I have to loose weight", "I want my life back", "I want to be wat actually I am, I don't want to overshadow me", "I want it, I want it, I want it, from hell of d world I want it". Every time Only 1 thing was on my mind that I want to loose weight. Whatever I was doing either eating, listening music, talking or in the middle of the party the only thought on my mind was I want to loose weight......instead of wasting time on Facebook I searched every aspect of weight loose on Google.......I started eating healthy diet in small portion thats it...........seriously saying through out my journey I never done any exercise........but that portion was covered by my Pharmacy Practical classes in which I had to remain standing for 3hrs in laboratory every day. I started loosing weight 3-4 kg per month. And after 9 months I was 46kg, I have actually lost 29kg in 9 months, but yes it definitely required lots of concentration & lots n lots of patience. I would love to say "you work on your mind, your mind will work on your body".

Now you will probably be thinking as how wonderful I would have feel after loosing 29 kg BUT you r absolutely wrong. I was not @ all happy being 46kg. Everyone around me was complementing me but my problem was still remained as it is "this is not me". I don't want to be underweight, skinny, lifeless........no thats not me.......I don't want to be overweight or underweight.......I want to look healthy, feel healthy, I want that if punch a guy than he must go unconscious or at least collapsed on ground after all I always have this macho attitude.....:)......so I started eating healthy food in somehow more portion & gave myself sometime treat also .

Now I am 53 kg & extremely happy wid that, now I think m on my own skin.....neither m overweight nor underweight........feeling healthy n maintaining healthy lifestyle. 

 Conclusion:- Don't be overweight not even underweight..........maintain your weight in which you feel most comfortable n healthy n happy n enjoy your life to fullest..................cheers

My PSYCHOLOGICAL journey from 75kg to 46kg [Part -1]

hiya world........today m going to share my journey from 75kg to 46kg.........well here m not going to give u tips for loosing weight,u can find ample of weight loose tips, just goggle it...................here m talking of my psychological journey of loosing weight, from my psychological pain, shock, disappointments, inferiority, isolation, how stress cause my weight gain to confidence, happiness, smartness, & my most important macho attitude.

  Initially I want to explain wat I was before my "75kg look". I was extremely energetic, fully sporty, very slim,  highly active & totally self lover. when I was 16yrs old that was my best phase of my life, I enjoyed life to fullest, extremely happy yet mature, self respected, strict. I was very excited about my college life like any other teenager. I was desperately waiting to go to clg, to enjoy d freedom, to go for outing wid friends but things got bitter when actually my clg started.

 My clg had high reputation but inside, that was the worst clg where professor talk disrespectfully to students, dean was the real dictator.....I was not used to it....that atmosphere cause me stress actually weight gain, unstoppable weight gain, though I was food lover but I was not the person who ate junk food regularly.......harder I tried to control weight more the weight gain resulted. That was the worst time of my life, I was disappointment, totally shattered after all my personality was my confidence......believe me or not but when u put on weight suddenly everything change. I was very famous as dancer & good speaker but in others opinion I was just an obese person who has some quality, in other word I was taken as for granted. I was not used to it, I can't be taken as for granted. 

I thought m talented, intelligent, sharp minded & yes beautiful but my weight overshadow me. The biggest fact that I was not obese baby in my childhood...no one my family is obsessed then why the hell m 75kg, m not junk food addictive, m highly active not at all lazy then why?wats the reason, I cried, felt helpless, hopeless, most unlucky person in d world & then decided to get rid of extra kilos that overshadowed me, my life, my everything. Initially I wanted to go gym, wanted a trainer and a dietician who can help me, but my tight pharmacy study schedule didn't give me time for any of the above. Then I thought m a human being the most intelligent creature of god  if I want to do anything I can do it, why should I need any gym, trainer, dietician.... After all who else can know my body better than myself & off-course m a pharmacy student i know how body works. Now I was on my mission..........................

A PARTICULAR DAY FROM MY LIFE

A day from my life actually I should say a date from my life........oh no no no don't confuse wid that sweet & darling type date and also don't confuse wid  fruit date.......sorry bad joke, m talking about a date "5 September" I don't know why but this date always grasp my attention every year...........wat so special about this date......god knows. We actually celebrate 5/Sep as "Teacher's day" here, but i named it "good fortune date", something good always happen to me on that particular day........sometimes I get lots of compliments, sometime a cute crush, sometime money, sometime a fantastic party and if neither from above then a simple day when I smile whole day......It all started when I was 13 years old & It has been 10 years now & m experiencing this fortune every year.............m not saying that m special one who never had bad days, I had my own bad & even worst days but yes i can say that 5/Sep is my "good fortune day". Do you have any particular relationship wid particular date, then plz share wid me I would love to hear................:)

RAINING - bad or good....u say!

Hiya good evening world.....just woke up from my mid day nap and wondering to what depth the nature can be beautiful, its raining here though m not big fan of rain, I don't like to go out while raining..........but still I enjoy the climate after raining.....that yellowish blue sky, fresh ultra green trees, an unknown calmness around in which each particular sound is ultra clear. In my opinion the best way to enjoy rain is to simply sit before your window with cup of tea in your hand to see how much happy is every creature of nature in rain at least I enjoy rain in this way only and would suggest u to try it just once in life try it m sure u will definitely gonna enjoy.........cheers.

This is d way I live my life

OK want to start from my introduction. I have completed my post graduation (Masters in Pharmacy) 2 months ago and thank god at-last my studies are over. Now m free from 1 segment of my life and really enjoying a lot this 'study free' time right now. Everyone else around me is so tense and in so hurry for getting job in any way but m not. My point of view is different. I think this time (after completion of studies) is best for enjoying yourself, to understand yourself, to know what exactly u want from life. A time when you can think only and only of u and M living it to its fullest. M responsibility free right now, I only carry responsibility of me right now. So I really want to know who m actually? I don't want to define myself as per what others think of me. I want to define myself by me only. So m finding me REAL me.........

Hiya

1st day on my own blog cheers....... :)